I realize it has been a long time since I've been here...we had to put our precious Bruce to sleep last Saturday - we did so in the back of our Jeep. He had turned 11 the same day - he had what was diagnosed as a digit melanoma and although removed successfully with "clear margins" in less than 2 months the cancer spread to his lungs and was also throughout his bloodstream - his breathing was labored and he couldn't get comfortable - extremely restless didn't sleep for almost 3 days straight - we decided to end it before it got worse and according to vet - it would have. I miss my babycakes so much it is a horrible pain. I wanted to see him this AM - prior to him being cremated and I bought him a huge bouquet of beautiful mixed flowers - placed them on his beautiful body and lit a candle and placed it on the carrier they had him on - they placed him under a tree and it was so serene and he looked so very peaceful and like he was deep in doggy dreams and I kissed him and told him to stay with me the rest of my life - to wait for me and meet me when my time comes and I placed a lock of my hair inside his ear cause it was important to me that a piece of me go with him...thank you for being my friends, and thank you for your love for Bruce. The day we put him down, I had made a birthday pie for him and he hadn't been interested in eating a couple of days prior but when they gave him a shot - the first one - he stood straight up in the Jeep and devoured that pie, all the chicken, rice, graham crackers and bananas in about 15 seconds flat - then the second shot they gave him and he layed down and was gone - he acted like he was perfectly calm - even though 4 people were in the car with him - me in the back seat right next to him and my hubby in the front lookin at him and the 2 techs close to him and he wasn't even anxious like he'd usually be with all that activity and he was so calm and like he was detached from us - he just looked straight ahead and was perfectly at ease and I will never forget those few seconds cause that was total opposite of what he would usually be like with all the activity around him. Please dear God, protect our baby - my adorable

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I took this photo 2 weeks prior to his death - the cancer spread shortly after that time.